When i love again!

TE Guest Posts : 4 Joined : 2010-01-11 Mood :

My heart was just in silence and afraid to be hurt again, i never wonder how hard just to be a single one, even though it's so difficult to accept that a person like me is unacceptable when it comes in true love.

1st day of school,

it was the time for my renewal and promises not to fool itself by somebody else.

However, expression couldn't be easily saying, "Sos, kaya nga nilang walang boyfriend ako pa?"

at that moment, i have enjoyed myself to be a single one. Then suddenly, their is something that let all my pledges fade.

i was jailed with that guy, no matter he is not the most handsome in town, but he is nice in everything.

I forget everything, the things i promise, the persons i cursed!

nasabi ko pa sa sarili ko: "Oh God, how can i make him in love with me?"

i never revealed it to my best friends nor to him, just to put it in a mysterious way.

as day passed, i kept on looking at him before flag ceremony occur,
i want to see him always before i go inside in our school premises, so that i can aspire myself to interact inside.

Til one day, he texted me, i don't know why and what is his reasons.

1 week later, he suspected that i loved him so much,

Sabi ko pa nga, "pep, what if sabhin ko sayo na mahal kita, mamahalin mo rin ba ako?

he haven't replied to me, i was thinking,

does it a good plan i have made?

after 2 days, he texted me, "hi Jing"

i responded, "hello Pep ko".

unfortunately, he said, i know how much you love me jing, i know what you feel as of now, but how can i say to you, na
"HINDI KITA MAHAL",

I replied, what are you talking about?

he
said, Jing ang hirap mang sabihin, hindi ko kayang mahalin ang taong
katulad mo at tsaka, may mahal na akong iba, at mahal na mahal ko sya.

i felt so much afflicted in my side. I have never expected that this will happen again in my life. how can this be?

Sabi pa nya, marami pa nmn jan, mas gwapo at mabait keysa sa akin. At tsaka sorry tlga hah, mahal ko tlga sya.

I've asked him what is the reason,

sabi nya,

you're a gay, and gays are not authorized to love by boys.

iyak ako ng iyak, wla akong magawa kundi umiyak, At pilit kong kinalimutan ang sakit na hanggang ngayon it exist parin inside!

Bakit hindi nla kami kayang mahalin?